Peiwen

Judgmental

2011-10-19T19:59:00.002+08:00

"Those who matter don't judge, and those who judge don't matter", just exactly like how "real friends wont judge".

Time to keep people in check.

Wanted you more

2011-09-26T20:43:00.001+08:00

I guess I wanted you more.

But now, I don't need you anymore.

Positivity

2011-09-18T19:37:00.000+08:00

I need to go less on the negative side

Impossible? Nothing

2011-09-08T15:25:00.002+08:00

When you find the strength and solutions, nothing is impossible.

Pretty cliche, but true.

Getaway

2011-09-01T21:25:00.004+08:00

Xiamen, China

27 August - 30 August 2011.

Awesomely good and much needed getaway.

I'm missing that place already...

Appreciation

2011-08-22T19:23:00.004+08:00

When is anyone ever gonna start appreciating?
Or perhaps, I should just care less so that I won't feel the need for anyone's appreciation.

Beautiful

2011-08-17T18:43:00.002+08:00

You're so beautiful, but that's not the reason why I love you

Doubts

2011-08-13T16:45:00.003+08:00

I've lots of doubts about you.

Are you really the person that I know? Or are you otherwise?

Just for laughs

2011-08-11T22:46:00.001+08:00

..Even my uncle owns an iPad. Where's mine, daddy?

Hot and cold

2011-08-08T18:29:00.005+08:00

We used to be able to talk about anything under the sun.

But right now, things have changed and it has turned so cold between us that I've to think twice before hitting send.

Why? Why the sudden change?

I really don't like this change. Not one bit.

Disappointment

2011-08-07T22:01:00.001+08:00

I hate growing close to people.

I just end up hurt and disappointed to know that I mean nothing to them right from the start.

Gone. Forever.

2011-08-02T17:05:00.011+08:00

Ever since you were gone from our lives, it seems that there's always a strange feeling of emptiness which never fails to eat me up inside. Now whenever I see children with their grandparents, I'll always have an urge to ask them to cherish each and every moment that they spend with their grandparents before they're really gone forever. But that'll prolly make me seem like a creep.

I hate 2011, I wanna go back to times when we ate, watched tv and laughed together.

I really want you back in our lives.

I miss you so much, grandma.

The memories that I've had with you will be engraved deep in my heart forever.

You're never forgotten. Never will be.

Insecure

2011-08-01T21:17:00.000+08:00

Free and easy life

2011-07-31T22:21:00.001+08:00

Anticipating for the life after O level examinations are over...

Racial Harmony

2011-07-23T00:03:00.004+08:00

Last 3 months of hardwork.

Last 3 months of coping with the stress.

Last 3 months of being able to study together.

Last 3 months of memories that we all know we should cherish greatly.

We can conquer O's together, my girls <3

Enough

2011-07-19T22:20:00.001+08:00

I don't want to be good enough, just enough.

Carnival

2011-07-18T20:54:00.008+08:00

Haven't been blogging the proper way for quite some time.

Well...life hasn't been interesting or eventful enough for me to even blog about.

However, I thought that the carnival last weekend was pretty enjoyable.

You can break everything I am like I'm made of glass

2011-07-14T19:09:00.003+08:00

Its alright

Happiness comes from within

2011-07-08T20:22:00.001+08:00

Am I really happy?

I have no idea either.

Life.

2011-06-29T22:15:00.001+08:00

Pink Dot 2011

2011-06-19T19:56:00.000+08:00

17/6/2011

2011-06-19T18:57:00.000+08:00

Bangkok 2011

2011-06-15T16:17:00.000+08:00

Gingy

2011-06-12T17:47:00.000+08:00

My best friend

Tired

2011-05-18T20:36:00.002+08:00

So tired of trying, so tired of people taking me for granted.

Finally, I can see you crystal clear

2011-05-06T18:38:00.001+08:00

Don't underestimate the things that I will do.

Cus this is all that's left of me

2011-05-04T19:14:00.000+08:00

Embrace the city

2011-04-15T16:35:00.000+08:00

USS

2011-04-03T02:15:00.002+08:00

Carefree

2011-02-28T19:15:00.001+08:00

I'm here to help you notice the rainbow

2011-01-17T20:09:00.003+08:00

You're so afraid of taking chances,
How you gonna reach the top?

Try to have no regrets, even if it's just tonight

Get rid of all the hesitation, it's time for you to seize the day

If loneliness would move out, I'd fill the vacancy

2011-01-11T16:07:00.002+08:00

I hear your heart call for love,
Then you act like there's no room.
Room for me, or anyone,

On everything that we could be.

Open up make a brand new start,
I don't care who's stayed before.
Give me a chance,
And I'd make a permanent reservation.

It's all because of you

2011-01-10T16:43:00.001+08:00

But here I am and I can't seem to see straight
But I'm too numb to feel right now
And here I am watching the clock that's ticking away my time

2011

2011-01-03T03:18:00.000+08:00

2010 will be history.

Broken

2010-12-26T01:51:00.003+08:00

I know I am not alone
I am not the only one who is broken

Move on

2010-12-10T21:18:00.004+08:00

All along I've been jealous, really jealous.
But I figured that maybe you're not worth it, since you've moved on without me.

Perhaps we weren't really meant to be.

Maybe

2010-12-06T01:28:00.001+08:00

Can't make my own decisions or make any with precision
Well, maybe you should tie me up so I don't go where you don't want me

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

2010-11-30T23:47:00.003+08:00

And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up but you're ok?
You got her heart and my heart and none of the pain.

Jealousy

2010-11-26T18:29:00.002+08:00

I feel like a plastic bag, drifting through the wind wanting to start again.

But then I realised, you're no longer mine.

All these pain

2010-10-28T20:16:00.000+08:00

I would go through all of these pain,
Take a bullet straight through from my brain.
Yes I would die for ya baby, but you won't do the same.

Please don't go

2010-10-12T17:42:00.002+08:00

Like the clouds, you drift me away
And like the sun, you brighten the day, you brighten my day

Copin' well

2010-10-12T01:38:00.001+08:00

Its okay, I've disguised the pain

2010-10-01T16:48:00.001+08:00

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting

I'd do it

2010-09-21T15:03:00.002+08:00

As this cold world turns round and round
So much tragedy have I found
If I could take it away, I'd do that now
Cuz only in my dreams can I smile

So if I go to sleep, don't wake me up

I miss missing you

2010-09-14T20:45:00.002+08:00

Where's the pain when you walk out the door
Where's the love that we couldn't ignore
It doesn't kick like a pill anymore
Where's the thrill at the end of our fights
Where's the heat when we turn off the lights

I miss watching you, as you try
Try not to end up in tears
Begging to get back together
I just want you to be
To be stuck in a second forever
So don't freak out and believe

I want you to see this, I want you to know

2010-08-25T16:13:00.004+08:00

In this crazy life, and through these crazy times
You're a carousel, you're a wishing well
You light me up, when you ring my bell
You're a mystery, you're from outer space
You're on my mind all the time

Now that you're gone, what am I supposed to do?

11:11

2010-08-12T23:11:00.001+08:00

If I could use a dream or a genie or a wish
To go back to a place much simpler than this

Cause after all the partying and smashing and crashing
And all the glitz and glam and the fashion
And all the pandemonium and all the madness
There always comes a time when you fade back into the blackness

Sweet nightmare

2010-08-04T19:44:00.005+08:00

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving in the morning
When you wake up, leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing

It's you and me up against the world

2010-08-03T20:42:00.002+08:00

I don't tell anyone about the way you hold my hand
I don't tell anyone about the things that we have planned

Won't tell anybody how you turn my world around
I won't tell anyone how your voice is my favourite sound

I can't tell you what it really is, I can only tell you what it feels like

2010-07-28T20:48:00.002+08:00

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's all right because I like the way it hurts

And right now it's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight

I know myself

2010-07-18T19:26:00.004+08:00

It might seem to you that I'm in a place,
A place where I'm losing the direction of my life,
But I'm sure that this is nothing but a phase

Once upon a time

2010-07-08T20:23:00.005+08:00

I will never regret you, because once upon a time, you were exactly what I needed.

You were wrong

2010-06-25T17:08:00.003+08:00

According to you
I'm stupid, I'm useless
I can't do anything right.

According to you
I'm difficult, hard to please
Forever changing my mind
Can't show up on time, even if it would save my life

It's just according to you.

But according to him
I'm beautiful, incredible
He can't get me out of his head

According to him
I'm funny, irresistible
Everything he ever wanted

I need to feel appreciated, like I'm not hated.

According to me
You're stupid, you're useless.
And you can't do anything right.

You know this

2010-06-23T18:40:00.002+08:00

They can say whatever
I'ma do whatever

Because nothing hurts forever

Self conscience

2010-06-08T21:14:00.003+08:00

Conscience - the inner sense of what is right or wrong in one's conduct or motives, impelling one toward right action: to follow the dictates of conscience.
- www.dictionary.com

Well I might not know what you said behind my back, but I definitely know the truth.
The truth behind your mask - and to tell you the truth, you really hid it well.

Where are your self consciences?
Aren't you guilty of your doings?

We can never rewind back to the times we've had together

2010-06-07T21:58:00.003+08:00

Now it still hurts pretty badly when I think back about the past..

Let's pretend like this never happened

2010-05-25T13:05:00.002+08:00

Now let's pretend like it was all good

Pretend he just made excuses that was so paper thin..

Cause I can read those velvet eyes

2010-05-21T02:46:00.004+08:00

And all I see are lies..

No more poison killing my emotion
I will not be frozen

Yeah you can try but I found the antidote

Be with you

2010-05-15T00:13:00.001+08:00

“I wanna be with you, if only for a night; to be the one who’s in your arms to hold you tight”

- Mandy Moore

Already gone

2010-05-08T00:16:00.004+08:00

Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know it doesn't matter
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know you'll find another
That doesn't always makes you want to cry

I loved you enough to let you go

Forever is over

2010-05-07T00:16:00.000+08:00

If we ever ever meet again
I'll have so much more to say

Somewhere too far for us to find

2010-03-04T20:52:00.003+08:00

So it'd been a long time, a long long time. Well life's really becoming a chore these days and I even feel tired of living this tiresome life at times. And I've realised, once an aspect of life goes downhill, everything else would be going downhill as well. Why is this so? Is it that the emotions in us are controlling everything? This had been troubling me these days, and I'm really worried about school work. Its not that I have not put in enough effort, its just that many things are distracting me from studying well. I hope I'll be able to concentrate though I might be far too wilful at times. This is the crucial period. Once its over, its time to party again. \m/

What you say

2010-02-02T23:11:00.000+08:00

Always watch your words.

When I don't really want no one else

2010-01-22T23:34:00.000+08:00

Me and you were meant to last forever.
Happy 1st month baby.

If I could just find the time

2010-01-07T19:11:00.001+08:00

Then I would never let another day go by.
Cause I've been going crazy, I don't want to waste another minute here.

Party like a rockstar

2009-12-15T01:18:00.002+08:00

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We will never see the truth around, so come on

2009-12-13T15:08:00.005+08:00

Its time to rise up and get the power back.

I found a home in your eyes

2009-12-04T23:19:00.002+08:00

And we'd never be apart.

I will fly, I'll fly the skies, for you and I

2009-11-30T23:35:00.004+08:00

I will try, until I die.
For you and I.

I want you so badly

2009-11-26T00:11:00.003+08:00

It's my biggest wish.

Something inside this heart has died

2009-11-24T18:11:00.002+08:00

And today's just another ruined day.
Fuck my life. It really suck to be me.

I'm so much better without you in my life

2009-11-17T16:00:00.001+08:00

But it's just another pretty lie.

To figure out the best in my life

2009-11-13T23:34:00.002+08:00

And the grass is getting greener each day.

Not sure if you feel the sparks

2009-11-12T00:35:00.002+08:00

But I feel fireworks when I think of you.

You set me in some real thinkin'

2009-11-11T01:39:00.001+08:00

This time baby, I'll be bulletproof

2009-11-08T16:17:00.002+08:00

This time baby, this time.

Unattach

2009-11-02T23:43:00.003+08:00

I hate having friends who are attached.
Or more like, the type who would kick their friends aside when they're attached.

Hasta la vista, baby

2009-11-02T00:32:00.002+08:00

Spillage of heart

2009-10-25T20:46:00.004+08:00

Shopping's the second best remedy.

Part of my heart is missing

2009-10-20T17:15:00.005+08:00

Haven't seen eyecandy for weeks already.
Wish he's still there on Fridays. :<

Pay's here, holidays are on their way here too.
Anybody want to have a piece of my joy?

Rockstar

2009-10-19T22:07:00.003+08:00

Life's like that, friends walk in our life and out they go.
But only true friends would walk in when the world walks out.

Embrace the night

2009-10-16T17:37:00.002+08:00

Last night was rockin' good.
Y'know, licking fingers and toes' good!

Relieve

2009-10-14T23:56:00.003+08:00

Lets get tha party started oh yeah! ^^

5 more to go

2009-10-07T19:21:00.002+08:00

5 papers more to go and I'm going all out to party!

PS: this week seem to pass extremely slowly, tsk.

Run out of time

2009-10-04T21:54:00.001+08:00

EOY exams R here, can I not participate in it?
I've not studied for it, yet.

Life's great, so am I

2009-09-28T21:05:00.003+08:00

Lovin' life as it is right now.
I love my girlsssss, they make me whole.
For they're the ones who keep me going in life.

Ain't no giving spoilers a chance to spoil mua life anymore.

Regretful

2009-09-22T21:32:00.007+08:00

Some things are meant to be said.
But some things should never be said.

Just like how its better not to know some things.

[edit]
This is bad.
I've no idea what I'm thinking about and I feel like I have a dysfunctional mind.
Exams are coming up but everything that's up in my mind is just weekends, weekends, weekends..

I really hate myself.
Why can't I just concentrate on studies first?
I really need to wake up from this "sleep".
I'm feeling really helpless, so helpless that no one can even help me.
[/edit]

Only you

2009-09-21T19:17:00.002+08:00

Only you can make this world seem right.
Because you're my dream come true, my one and only you.

To my dearest lil baby

2009-09-16T21:40:00.004+08:00

I guess you're in your hammy heaven already, no?
Hope you lived your life happily with me.
You're truly a great companion for the past 2years.
And I'm glad I once had you in my life.
The happy memories we had together will be kept in my heart forever.

Please rest in peace Muffin, my lil lovely one.
You'll be remembered for life.
I love you.

Questions of life

2009-09-15T23:07:00.003+08:00

Its funny how I'm feeling contented with life for a moment, and then hate it the next.
What is happening to me?

So do I really hate life or am I really contented with it?
I try to ask myself this question.
But honestly, I can't answer it.

All in all, the getaway didn't help one bit afterall.

First, you make me fall for you.
And now you leave me hanging on, but not moving on.
I really wished I could have you, but I hate you at the same time.

For sucha long time in my life, I haven't hated a person this much.

Lovelove, go away

2009-09-14T21:42:00.004+08:00

Love is wicked, love is bad.
Love does no good to people.

Why does it even exist?

Back from the getaway

2009-09-11T18:00:00.003+08:00

Back, with a veryyyy bad cough, sorethroat and flu.
Ears blocked ever since landing and it hurts like mad.

Anyhoz, am not gg to head out this weekend.
Gonna rechaaaaaaaaaarge and get ready to mug hard for EOY papers.
Theres no way I'm gonna flunk it, and I hope I never will.
Just 2 and 1/2 weeks more and it'll be here.

So for now, all I need is a lil more perserverance and endurance.

Better off without you

2009-09-04T22:37:00.003+08:00

That's my bbg for u:)
Flying off tmrw at 1.30, will be back reaaaaaaaaal soon^^
Hopefully, I'll be able to pass the customs since I'm having a slight fever.

Be right back with lotsa (Y) stuff!:)

Wake me up

2009-09-01T22:52:00.004+08:00

Can u believe it?
Peiwen spent $149 on ONE pair of shoes without even thinking about it.
FML.

Gonna escape to somewhere ~beautiful~ for a week during the Sep hols.
Hope I'll sort out all my thoughts by the time that I'll be back.
Because retail theraphy does wonders:)

Contented

2009-08-30T21:40:00.004+08:00

That's not mom, but still........

Today's damage, $252.20
Mommy's broke, I'm bloody guilty................
But extremely happy at the same time!:)

Contemplating whether to go for tmrw's party or not..

System overload

2009-08-28T23:25:00.005+08:00

In a really deep whirlpool of thoughts.
Indescribable, so inconsolable.

Just want to sleep and never wake up again.
Or rather, just wake me up inside.
Perhaps I really need to face reality.

In fact, being happy is just on the surface.
Inside me, all I'm feeling is sorrow.

Wrong thinking

2009-08-26T21:21:00.005+08:00

Just when I thought my life's getting well controlled by day, shit just got to happen.
Just when I thought I can find someone to talk to when shit happens, there isn't anyone there willing to listen to me.
Just when I thought people around me cares, they turn out to be superficial beings.
Just when I thought there'll always be someone that I can always rely on, I realise there isn't any I can talk to.
Just when I thought believing you would be better than believing my instincts, it turns out to be a lie.

Is it just me, or is this life?
Fuck my life.

Lead a good, good life

2009-08-26T00:26:00.003+08:00

Life's getting in hand, finally.

But please, don't make me fall deeply for you.

I need you because I love you

2009-08-23T23:41:00.003+08:00

I feel so untouched and I want you so much.
That I can't resist you, it's not enough to say that I miss you.

I feel so untouched right now, I need you so much.
Somehow I can't forget you, I've gone crazy from the moment I met you.

- Untouched, The Veronicas

Truly care

2009-08-23T23:25:00.003+08:00

"Some people ask because they have to, some ask because they need to, some ask because they need you to do something. But only some ask because they really care." -Xiuzhen